Cheater

The biggest thing that surprises me about cheaters is the assumption that once it is all in the open that it will be decent after a long road to recovery. It can never be the same. That’s why I like to roll out if I am on the verge. That’s also the reason I don’t engage in the relationship game. With my jealous nature and the lack of trust I have in women or myself, I cannot go down that path without a very strong partner who has the ability to understand me as I will try to understand her. With all that said, the cheater still cannot survive in his/her own relationship. The relationship can continue another 10-20 years but bleeding every day. Just because someone says that they are good doesn’t mean anything because it happened and it will always replay whenever there is strife. People who cheat sometimes become their own fans and do not see that they caused the relationship to suffer. They blame it on other circumstances. Eventually the relationship without TWO strong people will not survive and will be smothered out by trust and betrayal issues that will not go away. I have loved before and with the last love that I had I was ready to try down that path and give up all my negative beliefs. But I am not one to let others help me conquer my faults. Maybe that was my mistake. I should have let her help me. Though I did not roll out and only chatted, I am now labeled a cheater and it is over. No matter what happens it will stay that way for life and I refuse to live in that shadow. I will always help people get what they want and I will help her find that good man if that’s what she desires and she wants my help. I have done it before and to see a smile I will do it again and again. One day I will be ready to continue into a relationship but until that day, I will be who I am… a cheater.